Ups and Downs

Chaka Heinze

When Waves Knock You Down

I couldn’t breathe. The fear was so big it filled the place. Covered me. Hid from me the light of possibility. Limited my vision to the...

Chaka Heinze

In the Boat with Jesus, Puking Over the Side

Why does everyone else on Facebook seem to be holiday partying, buying presents, and making Christmas plans while we’re sitting in the...

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When the Going Gets Tough

What do you do when the proverbial poop hits the fan, and emotions are strained from staying on high alert for days on end, and your...

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God is on the Move

Some might call me insane. Out of touch with reality. Our son Landen has long qt syndrome (lqts). Suffice it to say, his heart suffers...

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Depressed and Christian

I am a person who deals with depression. I am a Christian who deals with depression. There are days when, for no apparent reason, the...

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Depressed Day 2: Mucking Through

Yesterday, I felt like an exposed wound, all grotesque and festering for others to see. Truly, it is not easy to talk about my weaknesses...

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Depressed Day 3: Just Walk Beside Me

All right, Day three. Day three of meditating on, "Rejoice always, pray continually and give thanks in all circumstances" (I...

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Depressed Day 4: Mental Manure

This week has been a good week. That sounds funny coming from me, doesn't it? But truly, this week has been a good week. I'm not saying...

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Depressed Day 5: The Mission's still the Same

And then there are days like today. Days when I open my eyes and no unseen force acts against my body, making it difficult to get out of...